I felt like I never really have the right to love him. It's not because he's wealthy or he's smarter than me, well it's not about the status of life nor about brain capacity, it's more of physical appearance and self-confidence that pushed me to hide the feelings that invaded my heart ever since I saw him.
They say that there's no such thing as "love at first sight"---but, yeah they're right . Why I agreed? It's because I believe that when I saw him, it's just a simple adornment of his smile and eyes that later developed to love, or so I think.
Science says opposite poles attract, and that's the statement that gives me hope. Why? Because we're completely opposite. I'm NBSB, while he keeps on changing partners almost every month. He loves to join pageants while I'm frightened to face people because I'm afraid that they would see the flaws on my body.
Happy moments with him? I've got lots to say, it's just sad to know that I've got less moments with him, but got lots to say because I keep on saying it. The happiest of all was when he knew that I got a crush on him, though I know it was embarrassing, but for the first time I heard the sweetest melody of all, he mentioned my first name for the first time in my two years of having a crush on him.
I don't know the reason why I could always hear the sound of my heart beating fast whenever he's nearby, but because it's just inside of me I never tell anyone. All they know is just he used to be the man who pushed me to do things that sane people wouldn't do. I keep it as a secret that I'm still feeling something for him.
Sometimes the words "feelings when hidden dies" keeps on replaying on my mind, giving comfort to me that someday this feelings would die but it never did happened. So I revised that statement: "Feelings when hidden stays alive when it's pure and true, especially if what your feeling right now is love".
And I deny that I wrote this....
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